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WHY GOD WHYYYYYYYY

NOT HEATH! ANYONE BUT HEATH! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

HEEAAAAATTTHHHH

WHHYYYYYY

*cries*

i've got your back if you've got my hand!

high five me in the shoutbox.

come on, show me some skin.

HIGH FIVE ME.

OH MAN I WISH I COULD PLAY FFXIII RIGHT NOW

Random~~~
But really. I am SO hyping for it right now, and it's not even going to come out this year. :sadface:

I'd seriously pre-order a special edition release of it if they do release one. I'll have to convince ma and Old Pop, of course, but with my puppy-dog eyes and eternal nagging, they'll give it...I hope.

But man.

I love my PS3. I just wish I had more RPGs to play on it. :sadface:

BORED

but i do not want to go back to school. D=

My parents are watching such a violent Chinese drama show.

Every 5 minutes, there's some shooting and mob rioting. Bloodshed and bullets all over the place.

There was even a torture scene, which involved iron branding some poor mafia dude.

If they ever ban me from watching something cause it's too violent, I'm gonna just ban them from watching this show. HAH!

Bored~~~~

Christmas!

Merry Christmas!

Went to the city with family. Drank a drink called "Dancing Violets". It's rose, violet, syrup, and ice. It tasted like perfume. I might die of poisoning soon. D=

Had a beeeeaauutiifulll walk through the city. Like, fantastic. Scenic. Gorgeous.

Happy birthday, Jesus. <3 Though I actually believe You're born in spring, heh, happy birthday in case it is your birthday! Nowhere in the Bible does it say 25 December, does it?

Rachel bought me a guitar book. Awesome possum, man. <3 her.

So, yes, Merry Christmas.

Hugs all around!

....I'M A LOUSY BLOG UPDATER, OKAY, I KNOW IT.

BAH

SHUT UP

>:(

Trying to be productive. Not succeeding.

My left index finger is swollen. I dunno why. It might be a really really big mosquito bite, which is likely since it's kinda itchy, or a spider bit me and the poison is a slow-working venom that'll render me a lifeless vegetable by the end of the week.

Bring it on, spidey.

It's really swollen though. Can't play the guitar :(

bah humbug

happy birthday Rachel. even though it doesn't feel like it, happy birthday.

now please stop crying.

my history teacher says I write beautifully. WHY DOESN'T MY ENGLISH TEACHER THINK THAT TOO???? :(

I'm going to get glasses. the eye doctah said that my eye power is low, but i should get glasses to avoid straining. Woohoo, low power ftw! Hah, you'd think with all my computer/book usage, I'd be as blind as a bat. but nay, I am awesome.

Three more exams.

Shalalala! The science exam today was darn easy. the maths was not. :(:( I thought I was prepared...BUT I WASN'T! Oh gosh I hate myself.

:(:( sad panda.

it's 11:43, I've only covered 10% of what I need for my history exam tomorrow. aw, shucks.

so yes. pray. :)

Can't wait for exams to finish..then PS3 FIASTA!!!! SHALALALA IN THE MOOORNING!

panic attack, and dance inside

exams start tomorrow. English and VisCom tomorrow.

pray for me? I need all the well-wishing I can get to boost my confidence. I can't afford to do badly.

i'm worried. very worried. I have a feeling I'm going to do crap in English. Essays and all that: I suck at them.

I'm frankly not stressed, but I'm just worried about the end-result. can't afford to get below a B. on any subject (save for PE, cause I'm going to fail that anyway :D)

wishing you were all here :(

Oh, and the Chronicles of Narnia game camera SUCKS.

that is all.

zomg, JOY TO THE WORLD!

I love my dad. He just suddenly set up the PS3 last night, and I was hyperventilating all the way.

I thought he didn't buy me any games...but he did. 2 games.

1) Chronicles of Narnia. I don't know why he bought that since it wasn't on my list, but that's cool. I loved the book and the movie. Heard the game was crap, but I don't care. We played through a bit of the beginning, and I ran out of time and died already. ~_~ The gameplay is like a messier version of KH. Buttonmashing and all that jazz.

Oh, and to open doors in the game, you need to bash it about 4 times before it breaks down. My dad was like, "Why can't he just open them..." lololololol

2) Kingdom Hearts: Final Mix. ZOMG! Why is the Final Mix more special than the normal KH? This game has new scenes, a new secret ending, new enemies, new abilities, new weapons, fixed camera and new bosses. Oh, yes, happy face happy face!

Old Pop wouldn't let me play through it. I have to study first. Haih. But we popped the disc in to test it. When the Dearly Beloved song came on, my sister was all, "HEY! YOU PLAY THAT ON THE PIANO! ZOMG!"

And yes. Both of these games are original. OMG! The KH:FM is second-hand, but in really good condition. No scratches, the booklet that's in the case (it has lyrics to Simple and Clean, some character profiles, a bit of concept art, and some other stuff in it) is still perfect, and it all works like a dream. The CoN game is brand-new, and costed Old Pop only 10AUD. He bought it in Taiwan lah.

Now...the bad news. Both games are in Japanese. ~_~_~_~_~_~ Which is actually really funny to listen CoN in Jap. "PETAROOOO! SHINJIKI NO MEZAKITTU EDMONDU!" And KH is fine lah. I already know the story, and can always refer to walkthroughs to explain things to me. Also, maybe I'll learn some Jap from this! =O Awesome blossom.

My dad can read some Japanese. I was so surprised. I was playin CoN, and he just read off some of the instructions that were floating at the bottom of the screen for me. And I was all "Waaahhh?" And then he explained that Japanese and Chinese are really similar.

Time to learn Chinese!

Oh, and the PS3 is really beautiful. HD is gorgeous. My dad said that it was "really sharp, lah". I was just hyperventilating all the way.

Oh, and the controller is wireless. It's fantastic. I ran all around the house, testing whether the controller can still be sensed that far away, and it worked everywhere. Go, Sony, go!!!!

I'll take pics. Eventually. If you all ask nicely. =) Hahaha, nah, after my exams or something...that is, if I don't get stuck playing the PS3 forever and ever!

Now, I have to ask Old Pop to get Okami! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Edit: It seems that KH:FM is English spoken dialogue, but Japanese writing. Score! =)

Heaven's in front of me

It's sitting there. In front of me. The image of sheer perfection is sitting in front of me. Oh, look at it. It's so beautiful. A wee bit on the large side, but it's what's inside that counts. Oh, inside's a treasure worth more than I have in my wallet (999AUD to be exact). It's tempting, it's too good to be true.

I can't wait to hold it. To see it. To jump around it in circles, chanting verses of praise and happiness. Oh glorious glory, wondrous wonder.

But I mustn't. I can't. I must wait. Now is not the time.

But once I'm done with my exam preparations...

Why harlo thar, you sexy thing. My name's Roanne. What's yours? Pardon, what was that? Oh, such a charming name. Playstation 3, you say? Nice to meet you. It's destiny for us to meet, I bet.

nostalgia era

I suddenly want to play FF8 again. Nostalgia. I mean, it's actually not really that bad of a game. It's the first game to really make me feel something. In this case, it's fear. My gosh, Ultimecia and the whole time compression thing scared me so much I couldn't sleep at night. And the music. Oh gosh, the Fithos Lusec Wecos Vinosec chant frightened me for ages and I would always put mute on whenever that song played.

It's clearly suckier than FF9. But I still remember FF9 clearly. So no real nostalgia there. FF8 is where the nostalgia is at.

Actually, if I mentally Photoshop out Rinoa, the game is 2000 times better. I suppose I could do that. It's not like I even used her in battle. Haha, sucker.

Man, I really want to play it again. Some of the music, except for FLWV, was so awesome. Like Eyes on Me. WHY LIE, IT'S AWESOME. EVEN MY DAD LIKES IT. THOUGH ACTUALLY, HE LIKES IT BECAUSE OF FAYE WONG, NOT FF8. SO NVM.

And also, Selphia, Irvine, and Laguna are awesome. LAGOOONNAAAAAAA! <3

Oh, and Channel Ten has started replaying old Futurama episodes they showed just, like, ONE MONTH AGO. what the heck. Come on lah. There's so many of seasons of Futurama, yet they already start doing replays? Rubbish lah. RUBBISH! Futurama is awesome, but honestly just show me new stuff. Jerks.

Pray for my exams. I'm going to get really bad marks on English, but pass Maths with flying colors. Why? I don't know. I suddenly rock at maths and suck at writing essays. Oh gosh, this is horrible. I need AT LEAST a B+ in English or else my subjects for next year are screwed. SCREWED.

Currently listening to remixes of game music, anxiously wanting for dad to come home tomorrow with PS3, writing notes for my Systems subject, panicking about my upcoming exams that start on Monday, and drinking lovely lemonade. Who wouldn't want to be me?

okay you can stop looking yucky now

my fingers are starting to look disgusting. i might be over-practicing the guitar, if that's even possible.

they look like old prunes with funky white stuff on it.

yuck.

i'd post a picture so you guys could see what i'm talking about, but it might induce vomitting. so i won't.

on the plus side = massively improving guitar playing. Still suck massively, but improving. HIGH FIVE ME, WORLD!

okelly-dokelly-doooooo

today was an...interesting day. don't want to post about it. too lazy lah. haih.

hahah. did you know my school has a counselor? i had no idea she existed. =O!

my fingers have officially blistered from playing the guitar. I AM SO HAPPY AND PROUD! WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS MY SHEER JOY! My sissy fingers are starting man up and get tough. Boo-freaking-yaka!

Playing the guitar no longer hurts as much. and I'm get better at holding the strings properly. Smile smile smile happy happy happy.

I still suck at it though. Same with the piano. NVM. I still have fun. That's alllll that matters.

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the bubbles on top of my milo looks so pretty....

Fudge it. I typed out a long post and got it deleted by accident. Fudge.

I am completely healthy. Just need to relax and rest more.

3 happy things today

1. I am completely healthy. HAHA TO YOU, DIABETES!
2. Milo + cereal squares = love
3. Almost mastered D chord on guitar. just need to press a little harder to stop buzzing.

I have a something to confess. It's kind of a secret I've been keeping to myself for some time...frankly, I was a little ashamed of myself. I mean, I never thought I would...feel this way. But I've come to terms with it. So I shall share it with you guys.

I love Phil Collins's music. =O

I know. I know. "OMG YOU LIKE OLD MEN SONGS AHHA SUCKER"

But it's not MY fault he makes such awesome songs. Harumph. So many classics from this awesome man. So many original ands covers that I love.

My mama said
You cant hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
It's a game of give and take...

Ladies and gentlemen, I've made a record today. I took - guess how long - to shower today. Take a guess. My usual one hour? No. 40 minutes? Nope. 30? Nah. 15? YES!
Yes, I somehow managed to take only 15 minutes to shower today. That's only...1/4 of my usual showering time. Someone high five me and my awesomeness.

It's getting hotter here. Right now, since it's nighttime, it's a nice coolish-warm temperature. But earlier in the afternoon, it was drier and warmer. Ick.

I'll get my blood test results back on Thursday. I dunno whether I'm hoping that it's all ok, or there's something wrong.

PROS of the day:

• 15 MINUTES!
• Not so cold
• I think - think - my old pop bought me a PS3 today! Cause he called me, and asked me what our TV brand was. He wanted to see whether he should buy the additional cables for the PS3 for HDMI thinggy-winggy. I am so pathetic when it comes to HDTV or whateverHDMIisrelatedto.
• Went for a good walk with Rachel in the park today. Doggies everywhere! Yay! One doggy came up to me and licked my hand, and was so friendly and happy, and jumped on me. <3

CONS of the day:

• Kinda hot. :(
• School tomorrow
• My laptop is dying. My faithful, trustworthy baby has been getting more and more errors and problems lately. Yesterday, the screen suddenly went black. Then, white, green and red pixels begin slowly and steadily appearing. It was kinda cool looking actually, but it freaked me out. My laptop is already nearing 4 years old, so I'm quite proud of its life and its service. All hail my great laptop. It deserves to finally rest. The problem, however, is me getting another laptop...old pop wouldn't like dishing out extra cash after buying me a PS3. :(
• School tomorrow
• School tomorrow
• School tomorrow

Goodnight.

I feel constantly tired. Every morning I wake up, instead of feeling refreshed, I feel like I've carried over yesterday's baggage. Everything I do just makes it worse. Everything I don't do makes it worse.

I feel so tired so often. Not every day. Some days I'm okay. But for the past few months, it's more often that I feel so fatigued than me feeling energetic. Nothing wakes me up. Loud music, my favorite show, playing the piano, going for a jog. Not even sugar.

I really am to tired to do anything. Even just thinking makes me tired. Talking soothes me a bit, but I always need a reprieve soon after that. Studying is just so hard. I find my mind wandering, and I can't concentrate on anything. It takes me hours to do something that sould only take 15 minutes.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Rachel's going to take me to the doctor tomorrow to see what she (yay for female doctors) says. I have a feeling she's just going to say that I need to sleep more. Or eat healthier. Or something that I already am trying to do.

This will sound stupid, but I want the doctor to diagnose something more serious. Like anemia. Or diabetes (which I'm actually at risk of getting since my grandpop has it). Or even depression. Anything. Cause then I'll know I'm not just a pathetic loser.

I really hate this. Whatever this is. I lie down to rest for just a few seconds, rise up and realize that hours has passed. And I'm still tired.

My sleep is always heavy, yet disturbed. No noise can wake me up, but I just find myself waking up constantly in the middle of night for no reason. No nightmares, no noises, nothing. I just wake up for no reason.

Typing is easy though. Hahahah. Like second nature already.

Time really depresses me. It passes so quickly, yet I never seem to get anywhere during it. I'm reading a passage, and takes me five minutes just to finish a sentence. My sleeping hours just seem so short. Despite the fact that I often lie in for, like, 12 hours on the weekends. It doesn't seem enough.

I have so little motivation to do anything. Most of what I do is either a necessity, or because I'm forcing myself to. I'm just too tired to want anything.

I never had headaches before this year. Seriously. I was so awesome that way. :) But this year, especially in the past few months, I've been getting them more frequently. I just want them to go away.

I'm just so tired. I really miss my dad nowadays. I don't know...I just wish he was here. He use to sing me a lullaby before I sleep. Chinese lullaby. Hah...it was kinda funny, but peaceful at the same time. I never once fell asleep while he was singing though. It wasn't sleep-inducing. It just calmed me and told me that he was there.

I want to sleep. I want to cry. I want to laugh. All at the same time. I don't know what's wrong with me. Hopefully, the doctor tomorrow will.

F.I.R. IS AWESOME!

WO DE WEI XIAO NI MING BAI JIU HEN HAO.

...:)

(oh gosh i'm lame)

I think my dad likes this band also, cause I remember hearing him play some songs before. I think.

Maybe I can persuade him to buy the CDs. He probably will agree anyway...he approves of me learning Chinese in any way possible. Heheheheheheheheh.

WO YAO FEI

WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

~~~high on life~~~