Bliss and you

I can not wait for my holidays to arrive. Go away, exams, go away SACs, go away school.

My parents are still very indecisive about whether my mother and I should go to Taiwan for the three weeks.

I personally would like to go, but as long as I get to see my dad again, I'm okay with whatever decision they make.

Taiwan is awesome though. I want to go there, eat the awesome food, channel my Hokkien chi, get my hair cut (mwehehehe), and hit the streets at night. Nighttime in Taiwan is beautiful. It's alive at night, things are still going on, and the atmosphere has some sort of subtle vibrancy that draws you in. It's not like a clubbing scenario, it's instead just...life at it's most simplest beauty. People are alive, they talk, they drive, they ride, they sell, they buy. It's a blur of things, a blur that harmonizes into something gorgeous called life.

I think the same can be said for many cities. Except Melbourne. Too many drunk people walking around? Hahahah, I don't know, but there's a sense of death during the nighttime in the city. It's good for many moments, though, like when I want to feel alone and by myself, isolated away and still.

I have some sort of traveller's lust in me. It crept into my soul, and it refuses to leave me.

In other news, life has been beautiful for me, since May 15th. Perhaps I'm a little too happy about it -- but happiness is never a sin. I could write a billion things about this right now, this feeling, the cause of this feeling, this hope and ridiculous eagerness, I swear I could write on for days about it. Amongst all this happiness, there's fear and worry, an insecurity and reluctance. But to these clawing feelings of negativity, I say "You are insignificant in the bigger picture." Things may, quite likely in fact, go awry and I'll be left two steps behind. Again.

But it's impossible to feel sad if you've never felt happy. And that's what I feel right now. Happy. I'm willing to throw caution into the wind for this feeling: this feeling and so many others that are racing through my heart right now.

Here's to you, future, past, and present. Here's to happiness and sadness, and here's to you, my heart.