I am a sad panda. And also, a banana.

I feel a lot of regret over not doing more when I was younger.

I think that the reason why I feel that I don't have a lot of free time now is because there's so much I want to do. I want to play the piano, I want to learn the guitar, I want to develop my musical ability, I want to learn Mandarin, I want to learn Japanese, and I want to write like a frenzied artist.

When I was younger, I should've taken advantage of my free time to further my piano and Mandarin studies. But nooooo, I had to not be interested in them back then.

I don't "regret" any of my decisions. They make sense to me still. I stopped piano and Mandarin because I didn't like it. I don't learn anything if I don't like it, really. But I just wish that...I had wanted to learn it back then. If I was interested back then, I know I could've achieved so much.

And so now, I have to cram in writing, learning languages, and learning instruments into any time I have that isn't dedicated to studying.

I think I do sound quite silly lah. But I really want to be awesome at all these things. I want to be a polyglot (can speak a lot of languages lah), an awesomesauce writer, and a OMGWOWOWOWOW musician. And I know that if I keep working at these things, I can and will one day be all those things. But with what little time I have to practice these things, that 'one day' is very far away.

I haven't practiced guitar in weeks. WEEKS! When I finally practice again, my fingers are going to hurt like heck.

What I regret: not having good time-management skills. Oh time, where are thou?

I'm going to make my kids watch Nodame Cantabile so that they'll want to learn an instrument and Japanese, and make them listen to awesome (not ulu opera songs) Chinese songs so that they'll want to learn that.

Oh, and I wish I had taken up violin. I was actually suppose to study violin! I remember going to the music store with my family and looking at a selection of small, cute violins meant for a small girl like me! But...I don't remember why I didn't study it. O_o. I went with piano after that.

And you know what that means? IT MEANS THAT I CAN'T JOIN AN ORCHESTRA! Darn it all, how am I supposed to meet hot musicians and have awesome romantic dramas with them? I LOST MY CHANCE AT A REAL-LIFE J-DRAMA! *cries*

Oh, and I want to do Vonn's awesome photo tag thing. But I'm quite lazy! I also don't have a lot of photos. D= I'll get around to it though. Meanwhile, KEEP TAGGING ME PEOPLE! WITH NON-TIMECONSUMING PHOTO TAGS! JUST WORDREPLY TAGS PLS!

Summary = I'm a sad black-and-white banana.