Whee, I love you all!

Tuesday was awesome. I love my friends. Major huggies to all of you.

I'm gonna miss all you guys so much. In one hour, it'll be 12, midnight. And then it will be my last full day in Malaysia.

It only hit me today, during the afternoon, that things can't really be the same. I mean. Some people have to be spoken to in real life, or it'll be boring.

I don't like change. Whenever people ask me what my worst fear is, I'd reply with "change". Change is something so unpredictable. You can't like it, it's just not possible.

You don't know what's gonna happen. You don't know whether this "change" is for better or for worse. You don't know anything. It's just one big empty void right now. And the moment you take a step into it, you see everything. And you're frightened.

You're frightened of how you're gonna fit into your environment. You don't know whether people will like you. You're worried about every single detail. Why? Because you don't know anything.

Change is one huge mess. But then...change doesn't have to be scary. As long as you have people by your side.

"I've got your back if you've got my hand."

That's my motto. That's my way of life. Well, one of my many "ways of life". If you stand by my side and guide me through problems, I'll be right behind you, pushing you forward.

And I do have people holding my hand. Many of them. Friends from a long time ago = Sarah, Nina, Grace, Zoe, Vonn. Friends from just maybe a year or two = Brandon, Julian, Sophira, Benedict, Jon Roberts, Josh. And newly made friends who still mean the world to me = Kelvin, Shoon Fai.
And this isn't including everyone who I'd like to list. One person who comes to mind as a real helper, a person I can talk philosophically with, a friend who I can connect to, in jest, in problems, in everything = Miss Catherine.

Sarah's another amazing friend. Scary, very scary at times. But hey, she's always there to knock common sense into me. "roaaaanne, he's not good enough for you"

Nina's another person. We've argued so much about pretty much everything. And now, when we talk, all we talk about is our future and dreams. Something that's so important. "Yeah, let's conquer the world. I want America!"

And Soph. Come on, you were expecting this, weren't you? Pretty much everyone thinks we're best friends. And maybe we are. I don't know. But what I know is that she's someone who I'll keep for a long time. "You can be shy person who wants to dominate the world what. [soft voice] mwehe, I want world domination, mwehe"

And Roberts? MOST HUGABLE PERSON EVAR! He's like a giant teddybear! And I love teddybears! He's a real awesome bloke. Gah, I wanna hug him one more time. His lame humor is always what I need to cheer myself up. If I'm feeling down, I would just have to talk to him and I'll smile again. Something about his disposition, his cheeriness, his kindness really puts a smile on my face. And come on, who can't love his lameness? "hunting with the fox for the hound..."

I guess I could go on and on. In fact, I already have. But everything I have to say can be summed up in these words = I have found True Friends and they are RIGHT BESIDE ME

On Tuesday, during the farewell gathering, I had to go home earlier, at 6:30. I was in Soph's room alone, transferring the pictures. Roberts came in and went, "Roanne, you're leaving? How can you leave now? I mean, what kind of farewell is it if you're not here?"
There was something in his voice that made him sound almost miserable. It made me even sadder that I had to leave.
Later, when ALL OF US, went down to greet my dad, I couldn't help but feel loved. They were all there for ME! They were all walking with me to ask my dad to let me stay longer. They were all awesome.

Brandon once said something really awesome about me. "Even though she's far away, she's still our little mei mei."

I could say the same for everyone here. Even though you're not sitting next to me right now, even though we're not talking right now, you're still holding my hand.

And so, this might be my last blog post made in Malaysia. But if that's the case, then so be it. Because it doesn't matter where I write. What matters is what I write. It's still written by me, Roanne Lau the Great. Roanne Lau, the little milo-drinking girl with a penchant for hugging, the midget whose best friend is her laptop and her true love her good download rates [I kid, I kid], the person who is holding your hand. Yes, yours. No, not you, creepy stalker reading this random blog.

Thank you for everything. Thank you, I love you all, God bless. Remember, look to the sky and you'll see me! We all share the same sun and sky, no matter where we are. And lastly....HUG!