Roanne <--- useless.

That pretty much sums up this entire post.
How am I useless? Well, if it isn't blatantly obvious to you, allow me to list it all.

1) This blog itself. What, do I even really post here? I never update the damn skin? Heck, no cool crap for you, the bored reader, to screw around with? Man, I suck.

2) Schoolwork. Damn you, algebra. May you burn in the everlasting flames of the underworld, alongside with lawyers, insurance agents, and that Malay punk who said that divorced women were "gatal".
On the other hand, I gotta thank the 'gatal' guy for something. He taught me a new Malay word. Whoop-dee-doo.

3) Laziness to even have fun. Gosh. I'm pathetic. I'm too lazy to even talk to anyone, or watch a movie, or whatever. I bet that I'm going to die from starvation. I'll probably die 10 feet away from my kitchen too.

4) Inability to learn something new. Piano? Pssht, play it later. Maya? Pssht, learn what the hell a NURB is later.

5) Stupidity to not do easy stuff that'll benefit me. Why am I always sick? Simple: I don't take care of myself. Ack. Serves me right, I guess. Nyum-nyum, to quote the bouncing Ancient.

6) My DAMN NOVEL. GOSH! Rawr.

Out of all these, #6 is the one that's bugging me right now. It's been a few days since I updated my novel. My updates are few and far inbetween.

Honestly, my novel depresses me. I love writing it, but all the technical details suck.
Writing is not easy. Repeat after me: writing is not easy. If you think it is, I advise you to write a novel with 50,000 words in one month. Hah, just try it!

I did attempt to do that, writing to the NaNoWriMo guidelines. Needless to say, I didn't finish it. Heck, I only got up to 2,000 words on the deadline.

Either way, I'm still writing that novel. Yay-may. Rawr.
And it sucks. Horrendously. Sometimes, I get scared to open the document because I'm afraid of what I might read. There are a few scenes that I'm quite pleased with, but with all the lameness that I see...eek.

What's bugging me right now is my novel's direction. Do I want it to be epic style? You know, something that's heavily fantasy, and with a sort of otherworldly elegance. Yes, like LotR.
My story is...fantasy/sci-fi. Yuck. Is that a good mix? A nice combo? Or is it destined to suck? Urgh. Burn.

...you know, now that I think of it, it's not really sci-fi. I mean, it isn't set in a medieval setting, but it's not actually that technologically advanced.

Hah, maybe I can scratch off the word 'sci-fi' then.

Erm, to return to the origin, I've been bitten by the epic bug. I now have the sudden urge to write fantastic stories of heroes and morals, or wars and worlds. In other words, I want to write like Tolkien, and make a LotR carbon copy. Hah.
But you know, just by watching LotR or Narnia or whatnot, I just want to create something as creative as that.

Wait. The keyword there is 'creative'. I should redefine creativity by myself, not follow some other person's footsteps!

Ah. I feel much better.

On a completely unrelated topic, I am exceedingly pissed off at my laptop's wireless. MUST YOU KEEP RESETTING AND DISCONNECTING? BURN!